this one is more of a 1am thing so if it is messy, good
i have a version of myself on the internet that answers dms fast, always has a take, and never admits how long it took to look that sure of itself
in real life i delete half my sentences before i send them. online i act like i woke up with a plan. that gap is exhausting
and for a while i thought the only way to earn from content was to grow that fake version until it got big enough that brands paid her instead of me
then i found people talking about @RallyOnChain and the pitch was not "be louder." it was closer to "write something worth scoring, and let the system judge the work, not the costume"
i do not know if that ends the persona thing completely. probably not.
but it is the first time in a while that trying felt more like writing as myself, and less like auditioning as someone cleaner
ok i am actually going to sleep now
